Friday, 1 July 2011
I really wasn't going to do this week's challenge
because I just couldn't seem to get "Tripoli" to work,
then I read that ledenzer had written about this,
"For some reason this challenge does elude me....but challenges are meant to be done..."
Now anybody who sees ledenzer's work will know she is a master,
and I realized that I wasn't in her league as much because I was ready to give up easily
as for any other reason.
Thank you ledenzer.
So I had a go, and again couldn't get it to work. just kept losing my way.
As I realised the way I was thinking, and the terminology I was using I just let go,
and let the little triangles bunch and drift as they would.
It wasn't tidy. It wasn't what I wanted.
Little pathways opened up where I wasn't expecting,
and things I thought would go one way went another as
I began to connect with the "zen" of Zentangle.
Then came some colour,
and without taking you through every stage I took the paper
through layers of colour almost to destruction.
(I often work that way,
and a friend once suggested I should be psychoanalysed,
because sometimes I just leave work at the destruction level).
Then I began to bring it back,
highlighting ways through the pattern and generally letting it emerge as it would.
It dawned on me for the first time that this reflects the way my life has gone.
Often feeling on the brink of destruction and then,
the return to health and wholeness before the cycle seems to repeat itself.
And I'm still here.
So, not a great tangle, but great zen perhaps.