Monday, 27 October 2014

Glory! Glory! Glory! - REALLY?

Well I've blown it again today.

Promised hubby I would give him a lift this morning,
 then I woke tired and cranky.

To cut a long story short I was getting ready,
and he was making chivying noises,
 which culminated in the question,
" Are you ready?"
 when clearly I wasn't ...

Well I'll draw a veil over the rest.

It wasn't pretty.
In fact it was mean, and cruel, bad tempered, and unnecessary.

I don't lose it very often but when I do, I really do,
and this was one of those times.
Not much glory there then!

I was still in a huff when I dropped him off and drove home.

 Now I face the reality of who and what I am,
and whilst not diminishing the truth of it,
or excusing myself,
I gently forgive myself.

And that there,
right there,
is the glory.

Slowly, oh so slowly,
I, who have always been so hard on myself,
I, who have always been better at accusing myself,
 rather than excusing myself,
am learning to forgive myself,
just as I have been forgiven.

"Be kind and compassionate to one another,
forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."
Ephesians 4:32 tells us.

After all, how else can I hope to treat others differently than I do myself?

I will rest up, then go and fetch hubby.

I have rung him and asked forgiveness for hurting him,
and  he has been understanding and forgiving,
 and we are again good to go.

I will make what reparation I can,
then we will travel on together,
 in our frailty, and humanity,
as we have done for the last 52 years
doing the best we can for one another
with a best that often falls short.

I am mightily blessed to have a companion
 who can mirror the love of God to me at times like this,
 and I am so grateful.

I certainly still have a long way to go as you see,
but to know that that is o.k.;
that I'm forgiven and loved,
and to believe it...
That is glory enough for anybody I think.

Be Blessed


  1. Hazel, this is such an inspiring post. It is so difficult to forgive ourselves as we have no tolerance for our own mistakes while we can be much more understanding of others. Thank you so very much. Blessings on your day.

  2. Isn't it all the most wonderful learning curve Lynda? Good to constantly be beginning again every minute. x