Thursday, 11 July 2013

Chaos (continued)

Recently, each time I have thought I am getting my life back on track
something has happened to throw me completely.

It's as if I'm being taught some in depth lessons on
chaos and un-predictability.

Not that it's all there is,
just that I am being forced to see anew how necessary it is.
It is the space where we are forced to look and look again.
To make priorities.
To sift the dross,
finding what to discard and what to keep.

 The precursor to new discoveries,
new creation,
even resurrection?

It's not that I like being unreliable,
or being uncertain whether I will be able to finish what I start.
I certainly don't like being wary about whether
I'll be able to get away for the week we've booked,
or even how we will travel;
but this too is part of the whole.

“Chaos is what we've lost touch with.
This is why it is given a bad name.
It is feared by the dominant archetype of our world, which is Ego,
which clenches because its existence is defined in terms of control.”
                                                                      Terence Mc Kenna



  1. Hazel, when I read this I thought about how difficult it is to relinquish control and to be detached. I thought of a prayer of Pedro Arrupe SJ, "In the Hands of God" - a favourite of mine:
    More than ever I find myself in the hands of God.
    This is what I have wanted all my life from my youth.
    But now there is a difference;
    the initiative is entirely with God.
    It is indeed a profound spiritual experience
    to know and feel myself so totally in God’s hands.

    As I get older I realize that more and more the initiative is with God and it is a great feeling of peace.

    Thanks for this post.

  2. I forgot to add that I really like the artwork, especially the tree.

  3. Love your artwork. Would enjoy seeing more of it.