"He showed me something small, no bigger than a hazelnut,...
I thought: What can this be? I was amazed that it could last,...I thought because of its littleness, it would suddenly have fallen into nothing. ,...
It lasts and always will, because God loves it; and thus everything has being through the love of God."
Julian of Norwich
Thursday, 11 July 2013
Recently, each time I have thought I am getting my life back on track
something has happened to throw me completely.
It's as if I'm being taught some in depth lessons on
chaos and un-predictability.
Not that it's all there is,
just that I am being forced to see anew how necessary it is.
It is the space where we are forced to look and look again.
To make priorities.
To sift the dross,
finding what to discard and what to keep.
The precursor to new discoveries,
It's not that I like being unreliable,
or being uncertain whether I will be able to finish what I start.
I certainly don't like being wary about whether
I'll be able to get away for the week we've booked,
or even how we will travel;
but this too is part of the whole.
“Chaos is what we've lost touch with.
This is why it is given a bad name.
It is feared by the dominant archetype of our world, which is Ego,
which clenches because its existence is defined in terms of control.”