"He showed me something small, no bigger than a hazelnut,...
I thought: What can this be? I was amazed that it could last,...I thought because of its littleness, it would suddenly have fallen into nothing. ,...
It lasts and always will, because God loves it; and thus everything has being through the love of God."
Julian of Norwich
Friday, 23 December 2011
It's Almost Here
Of course I did get around to decorating the house for Christmas,
and humble though our little tree is it pleases me
that I didn't give in to the feeling that it was really
all too much to manage this year.
As I'm going into hospital straight after the New Year
it will all be coming down rather soon
and it was tempting to think
it wasn't worth the expenditure of time and energy.
True it was a slower, more meditative process
than it has ever been,
but perhaps it was this that made it
an even sweeter time than ever too.
The cheap little wooden figures I bought so many years ago
come out every year and never fail to take me back to my family roots;
to the winter's day in Monmouth when I bought five boxes of them.
I each for me, for my mother, my daughter, and my then infant granddaughters.
Once the doors of your heart are opened
the thoughts of loved ones from many times and places
come flooding in.
Given the unhurried pace I was taking,
these reminders seemed to turn to thanksgiving and prayer
of their own accord.
After the determined effort it had taken
to unearth the makings and start the job,
it became a time of sweetness and encouragement.
After that I knew writing the cards,
and buying the presents in time,
would also be possible.
So I sit here with just the wrapping to be done tomorrow,
and two cards to be taken to folks I want to hand deliver to.
There have been other,
unforeseen things that I've been called upon to do
that I would never have believed I had the strength or energy for,