"He showed me something small, no bigger than a hazelnut,...
I thought: What can this be? I was amazed that it could last,...I thought because of its littleness, it would suddenly have fallen into nothing. ,...
It lasts and always will, because God loves it; and thus everything has being through the love of God."
Julian of Norwich
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
If you are wondering where I am in these days leading up to Christmas...
I've not been madly decorating,
or Christmas shopping,
though I will have to engage with all that soon.
As it is the days
have been full of lots of comings and goings.
Day to day necessities to be seen to.
There have been,
at this moment
griefs to come to grips with,
difficulties to be faced and overcome,
and I am wearied
and wanting to opt out.
If I knew what I could opt out of
and where to "op" to
My thoughts twist and turn,
my strength ebbs...
An unreasonable quietness rises
to hold me firmer
than my doubts and unbelief
before the next battle.
It is not I who hold on. I am held despite myself.